I know, (she says shakily, and takes a deep, slow breath, holding it for a moment before she releases it.) I just have to keep telling myself that. It's all I have to go on right now.

(She realises how hard she's gripping herself, fingers digging into her arms, and releases her stranglehold.)

You know, I've been thinking about it a lot and... if it came down to their safety, if it was between this, or lose them entirely, I would pick this. Every time. And maybe that's why it happened.